Life Changing

Don't you sometimes wonder why it is so necessary for us to have a 'life changing' moment? I mean truly so many of the extraordinary people we know, hear about, or strive to follow have had just that; or something they were able to classify within their psyche as just that. Now I have yet to investigate or explore what the physiological and/or biochemical elements or process is that creates such fintie change for an individual who has experienced this and built upon it. Though I am certain such facts exist on the matter and I am sure they are fascinating.

We know that many great organizations (for lack of a better word) know all about creating the environments that illicit such dramatic and/or finite change within a human being: the military or police and fire training for example.

Recently I have found myself without a job, not for anything I did they say but just a lack of business. Thats on me to a certain extent, if I was irreplaceable or more importantly invaluable they would find a place for me, they would negotiate with me to try and keep me. I know that this is true because their are other people there still kicking around! It is not a massive company but a very productive one that has had a successful history of building business.

They say with anything that you have to own it - a talented sports journalist and talk show icon (Jim Rome) once spoke the words: "if you don't ever own it, completely, how is it you are ever going to get over it? You won't, it won't happen" He was speaking about some superstar athlete that continued to languish in uncertainty after a scandal of some sort.

He was right, it doesn't matter what it is, if it directly involves you or affects you, then you must own it or it will own you. 'IT' could be life, society, failure, a person, a challenge, an obstacle, an addiction, a goal. AS with this I know a lot about what I do but I wasn't pushing myself to change or improve or engage powers/factors that affected my productivity. Looking around me surprisingly the same was true about much of my life and those who look up to me as well as a husband, father, coach, mentor!

So I don't know if this has been life changing, it has certainly been revealing, BUT I still find myself scrambling to cover disappointments, failing, or weaknesses up rather than deal with them, take them on, own them, conquer them. It hasn't been life changing, and in a way that tells me something about me, I am worried about the money but not obsessed by the need to replace it! But I need to respect its significance in my life and that of those I am responsible for and to.

So pieces need to be realigned, the foundation re-established, and the support structure fortified so that peace and happiness can be sustained within. Resisting the urge to try and expand the building before everything is structurally in place to sustain such growth. Truthfully though if I don't find that 'will' to change to allow my own effect, I can be certain that this is how people end up living out of a box down by the river.