a work in progress

I feel the sunrise and a new day is dawning
your breath on my neck keeps me from moving on
into a day where little hope is foreseen
I want to stay with you and continue to dream
but this world has its design of how we should be

I can't be myself and still be with you

we can't be here in this life

if we forgo the truth

it takes fruit off the vine
to have a life that's this fine
so we fall into line
we harvest a days wage
all the while just a page
of a classrank world denying it's rage



we take walks in the long grass
away from the Wall
our bare feet carve out new paths
there's no clock here at all
but when the bell sounds a dawning
we are ripped from the solace
get the uniform on and run to who calls us



I would have it another way
but I'm not the one to change the days
my heart needs affirmation
my mind needs the condemnation
the worst feelings in all the world
come from an unchartered search
for the goodly pearl



we leap in with abandon
find ourselves far from land and
give up securities we had
for something we think we need so bad
but we cannot describe it
or even imagine it

endless infatuation

not as in never ending for one but as in never ending variety of women who can draw my infatuation with the female being. so many women... so many million ways to be alluring... too often only personality is the real truly 'ugly' strong enough to create disdain or disconnect from a physical appeal.

like a long lost artist friend of mine once uttered:

"beauty may be in the eye of the beholder but most men can agree on ugly!" c.hearty

one can often narrow down the true type of women that for any individual man has him at a moments glance, but I find that with me, that would then be thousands of women. > eyes > soul > hair (colour or character)> smile > skin > laughter > mannerisms > openness > faith > curvaceous > prococious > meek > slender > sassy disregard > determination > voice > sense of body/self >

a partial and random list of the endless supply, some known and unknown:


Carla (about the rest its really all talk - i am her's forever)
Ledemure (my inspiration, first infactuation, and just plain awesome)
Deanna (shoulda, coulda, would)
Jodi (cowgirl beauty - save a car and ride a non-cowboy for once;)
Mariah
Ms. Learned (since I was 14 she has had me)
KLawton - so innocent, so sincere
Heather (lets face it some playboy girls are just plain beautiful)
Ramona (would do anything just to be with her once)
Margi (vive le france)
Long Lost Lisa (wouldn't even pause if she so much as winked)
Page 3 Tara
Erin W (give me a sign any sign)
Celeste (wanting her was not a lie - still do - it was just bad timing)
Paige (sometimes I wonder why and then I see you, mystery is an alluring animal)
Silver Screen Starlets: Carla G, Kate W, H Berry, Amy A, M. Stowe (cause we all have those we wish we could know more intimately)


To think that list could grow everyday from the random stranger in the elevator to the landscaping store lady who is helping us learn about plants... beauty is everywhere and frankly it is all sexy, all exciting, and all anxiety filled. AND often, so many after drawing admiration they speak and thier personality just sets the hook that much deeper.

Thanks to all of you for being so unique and staying unique.